today is not one of these days . and yet ...

there are times
when i just wish
i could cry
and cry
and cry
my heart out ;
for all the physical
relief
it brings .


but my heart
is so hard
i cannot cry ;
instead ,
my soul
cries out
( from the inside out )


feeling weak and pathetic ;
all night long
i toss and turn
waiting for you to answer ;
why do i not feel you ?
answer me , O Lord .
why have i fallen ,
yet again ?

yet ,
you pick me up
without fail ;
time and time again .

hold me close ;
to your heart .
in the palm of your hands ,
i am safe .

i am so undeserving .