( i need ) light .

urgh .
i feel so lazy and unproductive .
ate and slept for most of today afterschool ._. .
lol ?
like . i didn`t even do that in the holidays . ( well i slept for half the day xD , but yeah )

and after sport too .
a work out ._. .

regaining all the weight xD .
( LOLOLOL i have lots of ' fat spots ' xD . which look like goosebumps . eww =33 . )

need
to
study .
haha .

oh well ; read phil`s book , and the ISCF study and stuff supporting it today .
and ended up reading other parts of the bible ( other stuff jesus said ) .
was awesome :D ; just reading his word because i felt hungry for more .

not just reading out of habit .
or a sense of obligation .

and had awesome talk with dad :) ( about boyfriends HAHAHA xD ) .
i wish i had more time to talk to him =33 .

and i guess even though i know im pretty much screwed for ipt ; like im not going to do great or anything , considering my failed study patterns , it doesn`t matter .
it`s not about the score .

i`ve learnt so much from doing ipt . not just like technical stuff , but stuff about myself , and other bigger , important things .
and had lots of fun along the way .
the only things i regret are not working harder , and for putting so much pressure on myself because of it .

so much energy and time wasted ; worrying .

i don`t know how you`re going to use this for your glory , but i hope you`ll kick the lazy me into action .

even if i try my hardest and fail , it beats being lazy and owning the test ._. .
at least i`ll know i tried .
argh .

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thankyou , Lord .

hard to believe you still put up with me ,
even with all my sin ;
character flaws that i didn`t even know i had .

shine your light on me ;
expose all the darkness ;
&& chase it out .

for in the presence of light , there is no darkness .

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elena . luke . elaine .
pretty names .
beautiful meaning <33 .
( && beautiful people )