i want .

omgsh .
did i really say that ?
that`s just like totally lame :( .

funny , the things you say in deep emotion .

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on the other hand .
tangent ;

i wonder how you`re going nowadays .
i wish we still talked .

but when we do , it`s like we both immediately run out of words to say .

im sorry for everything .

you were a great friend .
too great
to me .

i don`t blame you for it .

but i do wonder if you actually talked to me , for who i really am .
i mean , i think you did at first .
but then later , it seemed like i was just a source of entertainment .

entertainment that got boring .

i guess we never really suited as companions .
but i still , really , really miss you .

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why am i so selfish ?
i only want the parts that i want ._. .

argh .
why do i even want it ?

i wish that i only ever wanted you , Lord .