claustrophobia .

hecticcccccc .
everyday , just more and more homework .
it piles up .

of course , me being the pedantic perfectionist - though , a lazy one -
try to rush it all .
but it never gets done ,
and the pressure just keeps going up .

lately , in a lot of the passages i have analysed since school started , i see claustrophobia ; read it , everywhere .
it`s like a common theme i can`t seem to miss -
this entrapment - of the mind - of the soul - physical - mental - spiritual .

i don`t know if the authors purposely put it in there , or subconciously did so , but all the same , it`s there .
in some degree or another .

( then again , Mr short does choose rather dark passages xD . )

run away .
run ; run , as fast as you can .
go . hide .

screaming inside .
break free .
... from this ...
this ...
thing you don`t understand .

but i never noticed it come upon me .

even before school ;
all the busyness .
watching it . but blind as it slowly overwhelmed me .

the narrow mind .
how heart breaking and frustrating to watch it work .
maybe even yours work .

but never understanding why you`re frustrated and angry and heart broken .
a dry and crusty heart .
tears .

thankyou for teaching me <33 .

so , reading your word , once again , i see a common theme -
how free i am .
but this time , it`s not cryptically encoded .
no need for critical analysis .

so i`ll hide myself in you .