What I've Done

Why do you protect me so?
I live in the safest environment I can think of.

No; my parents are not naive; yes they let me go out heaps; yes they teach me a lot about the world. But in preparing me so, I am even safer =_=.

Of course, 'bad things' have happened to me or around me before, but I've been taught how to respond; just get out of there.
And so I live not having to face it everyday, unlike so many other people.

Everywhere I go, I am cushioned.
If not by physical or parental restraints, by the incredibly safe environments I am in.
Surrounded by 'good people'.

There's a world out there I've only ever been told about, but never had to face.

Except in my thoughts...
When I am all alone...

How can some one with everything- the friends, family, good, loving home, everything they need and more- feel and think so terribly?

Why is my mind so still so dirty?

You tell me.

And someday I will have to face the real world.

I guess the 'funny', ironic thing is, nothing ever happens to me.
It all happens inside my head.

I've never failed a test; never dated; never kissed; never drank; never been hungry (properly); never done anything majorly bad.
But I've done it all in my head.

If you were to look at my life on the surface, you could possibly discount it as 'boring'.

I wonder why you do this. Your plans for me... I will never understand, but will keep trusting in~
To be honest, I love this 'safe' world of mine, where everywhere I look I can see You. (There are, of course, lots of cracks and 'bad things' too.) But I must leave this place someday, to where people don't know You, to shine Your light for them to see.

It's a scary thought, but with You, I can do all things.