incomplete melody .

yesterday night , i was empty and lonely and sad .

i knew it - you loved me , she loved me , he loved me , they love me ; i was literally and figuratively surrounded by love , and they were all there for me - but i couldn`t feel it .

it had been so long i had forgotten what it felt like to be lonely and sad .
i didn`t doubt your love , but i doubted your existance .

because i had shut myself out from you ; too blind to see you .

i was tired , and pushed you out , thinking i was just resting , instead of drawing on your strength .

i saw the warning signs long ago , but pushed on by myself , stubbornly .

' how long ? ' , i cried to you , again and again .

i longed to see you ; feel you - again . even just a tiny glimpse of you would be enough to heal my broken heart .

but you seemed silent . where was that mighty , saviour servant King who loved me ?

i didn`t think that i could stand it anymore .

and yet , you lifted me up again , at your perfect timing , not mine .
your whole world screaming , ' i love you ' .
your love song to me .

may you fill up my incomplete melody back to you , with your grace notes .

( teehee . incomplete melody - lee hom . )

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in the end , does it really matter ?

one year ; one month ; one minute ; one second .
you blink , and your life passes .

you think you learnt your lesson , and so because it`s your life , you will not waste it , grasping hold of every opportunity you can .

' it`s my life ; mine ! ' you say , and you`re desperate for freedom , but really you`re just desperate . desperately trying to make something of your life before it passes , wanting to be some one .

but it`s not your life ; you can`t be all you wanted , and you will die , just another faceless , nameless nobody .

jane doe ; john smith ; you grow up , get a job , earn money , spend it , and die .
a never ending cycle of futility .

absolutely charming picture . not including all the times you trample on people to get up there .

in the end , you`re still so lonesome and in need of simple , pure , sweet love ; something the world tries to hide away , to keep to themselves .

perhaps you gave the world your best , but the rest of them trampled on you for that .

perhaps you think you`re strong , but you still feel lonely . just a bit , just a little , little bit .

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vanilla twilight - owl city <33>

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find opposing new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

owl city = LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D .