Soft and gentle and warm to the touch :).
-Melts-

Ludicrous- Portrait of a Miserable Girl.

And she smiles that little sad smile of hers, full of despair.

How often, full of hope, have I seen it, bright and beautiful!

But her laughter fades with the sound of footsteps, as she realises, left alone with her dark, ugly thoughts, how brutal and cold and unfeeling she really is.

They love her- but they don't see what she believes to be the real her- a monster clawing at the unknown; violent yet shaken as it lies dying on the floor; crawling and crawling and biting the dust to no end.

Run, the voices tell her- run, run, run. Get away from this place.

The tears leave two parallel streaks down her cheeks, and she feels comical and laughable; they scream 'pity me; pity me; the miserable'.

How ridiculous she feels!

But all she can do is whisper: 'Where?'

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This is my darkness.
Was.

This is my light: Love.

Quote Angus' blog:

'the three effects of sin:

1. to create a barrier for humans which prevents us developing our relationship with God
2. it allows Satan to give us grounds on which we accuse God for our sin and it allows Satan to tell us that we are failures unworthy of God
3. it gives us a sense of guilt in which further estranges us from God'

Wow. I've known this since... ages?
But not really until now, as I read his blog and reflect on the past few months, from the beginning of the year.

Lord, I lift your name on high Lord
I love to sing your praises
I'm so glad You're in my life
I'm so glad You came to save us

You came from heaven to earth
to show the way
From the earth to the cross
my debt to pay
From the cross to the grave
From the grave to the sky Lord,
I lift your name on high

Guilt is such a terrible thing.

Warmness

LOL at Vicky and 'According to Ms Summers, touch is an innate human need. Lack of touch in one's early childhood years can lead to detrimental effects such as unusual behaviour towards touch in later years'.
Hahahaha :).

Physical intimacy... Lol.

I think it's expression of how we crave intimacy with other beings?

On all levels.
Physical; emotional; spiritual; etc.

Hmm.

I love our holding hands, Steph, and the massive hug today, Elena, and your warmness, Carmen ^_^. (Why did I say warmness instead of warmth? Warmness is such an awkward word, and yet Firefox recognises it as a word- probably as one of those new-age, noun-form-of-adjective words o_O.)

Whatever touch is, it's beautiful :).

Human beings are so weird.

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I wish I could play piano.
And sing.

Gah. So pretty!!!
-hearts-

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I tried to take a power nap today.
It lasted for 2 hours and a bit.
GG.

But I woke up feeling happy cause I wasn't tired anymore.
Yay! :DDD

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Mmm milk tea.
So warm ^^

The more I do,
The less you'll do,
But that just contradicts everything.

So what to do?

Home- Michael Buble

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

Shiver at Your Touch.

&& the songs that I sing to you won't do;
even if they sound nice.

'Don't know; Don't care'
are possibly the most painful phrases out there.

Don't matter.
(Not in the sense that it is irrelevant or I don't care; I mean that how I feel doesn't matter- I don't consider me important. I'm alright. But maybe... you're not?)

Even if I'm crying- I'm not fallen apart; I'm fine-
I'm just crying because I'm hurt.
Hurt and scared at/for/by someone dear.

And, so, don't feel sorry for me;
I'm fine.

I just love you okay?

Won't you let me love you?
It's frustrating how I can't.

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Imagination soar.
Imagination free.

Imagination warm&cozy.

Imagination imagine things to hurt over.

Imagination come here and let me tie you up.
You go too far.

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It's amazing watching really gangster-looking guys sing, with the smoothest voices ever.
Loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :).

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Omgshomgsh I just ate some of OUR food Steph hehe.
Sakata loveeeeeeeeeeee teehee.
Our favourite flavour too ;D.

UsTwoWINZ.
:)

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I need to stop listening to songs with lyrics.
Or at least stop singing to them.
Unless I learn to multitask? Haha o_O.

Watcha waiting for?

What are you waiting for exactly?
Get your head in the game, girl.

(I just lost the game.)

You know what is right.

Yes, it's hard, but it's do-able (in Him and with Him), and its necessary.

And it's worth it.

It's just that it still hurts.

I need to get over that.

(Not to say that I think that I am a pathetic being; I just need to get moving.)