rambleramblerumblemumblejumbomumbo :D .

happyhappyhappyjoyinyou :)

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eurgh .
i hate wasting stuff =\ .

i hate selfish - ness even more ._.

( which is why i hate myself at times =33 )
but not today .

argh . please be nicer ? =33

i love you :) <33 .

you can do it , in him .
do anything ; everything in him !

as long as it`s in him <33 .

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i wonder ...

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AWESOME talk with elena today .
SOSWEETIRGJIRSJGIORJOIEJ D; .

haha ; boring or barring or bearing or burying or beering ? :) ( a , e , i , o , u ? )
teehee .

elena is nice to hug :) .
love you <33

I WANT COOL LEG MUSCLES TOO :(
let`s flex ! ( ible ? :) )

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9/10SC / 11U-DF READ YOUR EMAILS .
i know it`s lame - cringes - .
BUT YEAH .
READ AND REPLY ASAP PL0X ? :D

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i wanna cut my fringe :( .
but i dunno if i should .
and whether i should just a haircut ?
lol

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hmm ...

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off to do english nows ><; .
will sign off with AWESOMEskiies song <33 .

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Believe It Or Not - Playjerise <33

I believe in you
I hope you see it in the way that I move
People around get lost on the road
But we're better then that I know

Cause I found love
Yeah believe it or not
Well I found love
Yeah believe it or not
Not because of what I did but because of what you did
Not because of what I did but because of what you did

Cause I,
I don't wanna go back again
Cause lately, I've been drowning here
And I don't wanna go back again
I don't wanna go back again

I found love
Yeah believe it or not
Well, I found love believe it or not
Not because of what I did but because of what you did
Not because of what I did but because of what you did

Cause I,
I don't wanna go back again
Coz lately, I've been drowning here
And I don't wanna go back again

Oh no no no

Cause lately I've been drowning here
And I don't wanna go back again

Don't wanna go back
Don't wanna go back
Don't wanna go back
I don't wanna go back

I don't wanna go back again

If I go back
Will you find me
If I go back
Will you find me
Will you find me
Will you find
Oh will you find me
Will you find

And I,
I don't wanna go back again
Cause lately, I've been drowning
I don't wanna go back again

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i LOVE Playjerise .
awesome guitar .
awesome lyrics .
awesome melodies .

awesome acoustic - ness :D .

AWESOME(st) God of Wonders <33

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OH yes .
saw beautiful spring blossoms / buds / leaves today !
so greennnnn <33 .

prettiful .

the wake after the winter sleep :) .

reminds me of ' the sun washed by the spring rain - lee hom ' ( with the sexy guy with the sexy guitar with a sexy voice xD . not to mention talented and refreshing ) and ' winter sleep - olivia lufkin ' ( nana inspired ? :D teehee . good movie ! )

more awesome - ness <33 ! :D

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okay , i really really need to go do english now ._.

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i miss yous ; kinda ; just a bit :) .
though you`re awesome , i wish i didn`t .

Struggle - Playjerise <33

I could be wrong
But you were not the person that I knew
Whoa what a waste of my time
This wouldn't happen if you would open up and let me in

Whoa what a waste and I
Struggle along
Struggle along without you
Struggle along whoa oh
Struggle along without you
'Coz I ooh hoo
I can't breathe when you are not here
Oh I ooh hoo
I can't breathe when you are not here

Oh I
I wouldn't know
If you could change my world
For the better or the worse

Whoa what a waste and I
Struggle along
Struggle along without you
Struggle along whoa oh
Struggle along without you
'Coz I ooh hoo
I can't breathe if you are not here
Oh I ooh hoo
I can't breathe if you are not here

I can't breathe
I can't breathe if you are not here
I can't breathe if you are not here
You're not here
You're not here

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AWESOME song . but emo .

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but i think the reverse is true . you don`t change much ; i just used to see you in a skewed perspective .

or maybe i just chose to be blind to your faults ?

eurgh .
every breath i took was about you .

every breath without you hurt .

and now , ive changed .
and will keep changing , i hope , with my eyes on Jesus .

may i breathe Jesus now :) .

but you . it hurts to see you hurt =\ .

funeral blues .

thankyou for your selflessness ,
as a wonderful mother , sister , wife && friend .

i regret not appreciating it enough , when you could feel it , here .

but you`re in a better place now .
so see you , soon .

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ahahahahaha .
cried off all my eyeliner today xD .
( i know , right ; eww black water . lololol . )
was so stoned , washed out and drained afterwards .

but it felt good .

a sniff . a pat . a hug .

tears running rivulets down our faces .
turned out to be quite funny ; everyone blowing their red noses ; eyes glistening with tears .

you guys are awesome <33 .
to spare a thought ... for you ; me ; us .

and though the pain won`t fade for some time , i know you know that we love you .
love , which we`ll do anything within our limited ability for .
but thankfully , he gives us unlimited ability to love with :) .

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so much love .
i hope i can do the same , for you .

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there`s too much love in this world ... of the wrong type .

So Quick .

why so judgemental ? =\

at first , it made me really really angry .

i mean , very well if you want to judge me , though i hope you`ll see i`m trying my best . for God .

but why him ?

why her ? why them ?

we aren`t perfect , but we`re trying .

and please , respect that =\ .

as for me , please stop asking me to judge other people for you =\ .

One Way → ( look towards ) Jesus !

But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ .

What is more , I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord , for whose sake I have lost all things . I consider them rubbish , that I may gain Christ and be found in him , not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law , but that which is through faith in Christ - the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith .

Philippians 3:7-9

all the good and bad i am , and have done , i will forget and commit into your hands , and simply look towards you in everything .

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grant us wisdom , O Lord ,
and the humility to examine ourselves faithfully ;
to be true to ourselves , and be true to you .

am i doing everything for the right reasons ?
is it for you ?

is everything i am bringing you glory ?

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i think not . which is why i need you , all the more .

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Awesome thing i read yesterday ;

The Lord`s prayer has no ' I ' or ' Me ' or ' My ' .
NTS ; Learn from it .

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you know my mind .
you know what i want
&& what we need .

you know how much we need you .

im so afraid of what i`ll do . but it`s not about me , it`s you .

so please , give us your wisdom .
wise and discerning hearts .

your knowledge and strength .

let us look to you when we feel stuck for answers .
cause if you bring us to it , you`ll bring us through it :) .

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NoteToVT ; Sorry no msn today . Got work =\ .
Stuff on .

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Thankyou for telling me , Claudia . I hope I can be wise as to what I do next , from here .

I love you sis ^_^ .

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Do everything for you , not just me , us , or everyone else .

on many things .

' it would be so easy to give myself to you . '

please don`t .
give yourself away like that , that is .

you will regret it .

it can be strangely beautiful .
but it`s not for you .
or maybe , simply , not yet ?

i love you .
i care about you .
im sorry im not sensitive to a lot of your needs .
and sorry for not being the ' greatest friend ' for you .

but he cares about you more .
he knows you better than you know yourself .
he is the greatest friend there is .
he loves you .

and love never fails .

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your good and perfect will .

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eating strawberries :D .
though , sour , very red . very pretty :) .

im eating ovaries :D .

jas is sucking me into her awe of creation , though nowhere near as wonderful as the creator <33

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加油 , 哥哥 <33

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i love you too luke :D .
you mean a lot to me as well .

that was the longest text i`ve ever received , but probably the most beautiful one :) .
it be taking up the space of 3 texts , but i`ll probably keep it in my inbox for ages now :D .

(y)ourlovewillneverend .

Warm fuzzy feeling ?

Being in love is a nice feeling ...
but only
when it`s with you ; in you ,
Lord <33 in you ; not a love you bless , is not so nice . It`s very ... consuming ... + time consuming . We`ll see what comes of it . )

Cool part of a poem I read today ;

Being single is a blessing .
Being married is a gift .

:)

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ShoutOut ;

I love my family ; especially my family in Christ .
I love you Jas , for being awesome constant encouragement , love , support , fun , laughter , source of lame jokes , etc . :)
I love the Mario Kart Love Song you linked on your blog .
I love love . ( Because God IS pure love , whatever love looks like )
I God God . ( Our inside joke , because God is love . So I love / God God ! )

But most of all , when it all comes to rest on you ,
a better life
comes .

yush . all .

everything .

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Reading poetry , for english .
I like poetry .

But I can`t really find one that I REALLY REALLY like Dx .
( Apart from Psalms , of course , Jas xD )

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lol at today at lunch .

maddy ; ' Did you know that it`s scientifically proven that girls in girl`s schools like pretty boys more ? '
sabrina && i ; LOLOLOLOL . HAHAHA . REALLY ? that`s so true xD .
maddy ; ' yeah . cause they`re surrounded by like femininity / feminine beauty all the time '

teehee :) .